50 Kinds of F*cked up!

Well this weekend blewup in my face so much for a happy holliday i want my girl riends friend to go home now all of a sudden in her parents eyes im a abusive boy riend its totaly bull shit im so sick of her parents shit one day i wear on the name of the lord that im just gonna go off on them nothing violent just yelling and screaming she will be 18 in a year so it wont matter any more i love here and thats all there is to it

Nothings Wrong

With the turn of recent advents and looking away from the past I've come to relise that I actully have it quite well at the moment but still theres that feeling in the back of my mind that tears at me every day even when i look at my wifes smileing face and hear her sweet soothing voice theres always that something in me that seems to be clawing at me from within i wish i knew what it was i would totally git rid of it.

I was considering geting professinal help but that cost just a wee to much

Xbox360 was released last week I'm geting one for christmass my budy rushedo ut the day after and got him mine was reserved threw my moms work

in one year i plan to move out i cant take the people i live with any more its not that i hate them or any thing its just that i cant stand them any more every little thing seems to get to me any more when they dont throw away there trash or dont take there dishes to the sink or rinse them off when they leave there clothes in the bathroom little stuff like that stuff i use to do my self now bugs me to my very core

Im pobly loseing my mind hell and heaven both know im growing very very far apart form my friends there off get high and drunk while i work and study continuesly these days

Christmass seems ever harder this year with no money for me to spend on any one even thoue i know my parents will give me the money i need and i am haveing an increasingly ard time finding out what i want for my self iv been so concerned with every one else that i dont even know what i want to make me happy any more


But all in all i dont mind the way i live any more jsut the way every one else lives

Sarah Lane her blog is as smooth as poitry theres a feeling of awww when you read some of her posts


i know im to be married but it still be cool to just meet her once even if we didnt get along or any thing

but such is life i guess ill just keep livin life one day at a time like uswal

naota once said that nothing ever happens in this town this boaring every day town untill she came along

When am i going to find that person that makes my day to day life seem fun again or intresting

politics are more intresting then thel ife i live and its sad but michele makes me happy so as long as i hold her tight every thing is gonna be ok. I wont let her go for any one not even god

And collages not leting kids blog online even exspleing them becuase of it . Thats a bit upsered in my opion it doesnt honestly reprasent them just there students what the fuck whould they care

maybe i feel they should think that way thanks to the public school system iv grown acustum to i always do find my self thinking what would happen if was going to a privte school how would things be difrent if i had money and would i be happy for once if i did, I always come to the same conclusion that yeah things about me would be difrent but id still have michele and i wouldnt be happy unless im with her (damn emo music sounds good but depressing) i have to stop listening to them my sister only listens to emo shit and it pounds in my head but yeah what ever

Its pathtic theres an online counter to show how many months days even years will emma watson Hermine will legal to fuck
and to top it off its wrong if that clock was right shed be a year older then i am but in fact shes 2 years younger then i.... people need to grow up yeah there famous that doesnt make them better then any one hell half the people in hollywood are horible people they jsut get paid for acting thats all nothing difrent nothing special thats just like as if we worishped the rich but we dont if u poor u hate the rich but not Celberties? what the fuck is with that and E isnt helping any thing thats all that channle is about it mearly feeds us with shit we dont need!

now a funny yet intuitivly smart show on television is The Boondock on [AdultSwim] that show is great some people dont see the charm or the intelagense in it becuase of its lack in actual action people complaine that its all diolog which it is but isnt that better then most cartoons today they arnt even funny they over exspemt on being stupid funny to the point where it isnt funny at all some fine exsamples (grim adventures of billy and mandy,ed,edd,eddy) thoues are just a few

as the kid from doondocks would say
"GOD DAMN PEOPLE SHOW SOME GOD DAMN DIGINITY"

see you in space cowboy.
SephxTR.